Apr 26, 2010  •  In Comang, Personal, Pregnancy

Do I Look Like a Mom Yet?

Sometimes, when Comang is lying on his back, I like to grab him and hold him in my arms like he’s a baby.

When Comang is tired he lets us do whatever we want to him, so he can lie in this position quite comfortably for a while. Just before J snapped this photo, he was snoring away in my arms!

People often ask me if I’m scared to have a baby; after all, I still act like a kid myself. My looks seem to betray me too, as I’m consistently mistaken for being about 5 years younger (and I can see how when I am sans makeup, hair messy and just chillaxin’ at home like in the photo above).

The truth is, I’m not scared at all. I’m not even scared of labor (but ask me again in 4 months!). I have had plenty of experience taking care of my younger cousins while growing up, and just recently I was a part-time nanny to an infant.

I know it is different helping take care of someone else’s baby vs actually having the full responsibility of your own child in your hands. However, I feel like I’ve seen enough to be pretty prepared. Crying for hours on end. Diarrhea. Projectile vomiting. Peeing on furniture. Temper tantrums. Sleep-training. The list goes on and on.

I’m not scared. I’m looking forward to it, as a matter of fact. Even the bad.

2 Responses to “Do I Look Like a Mom Yet?”

  1. i was really, really, REALLY scared my first trimester. i was sure something was "wrong" with me, that my natural mothering instinct wouldn’t kick in, that i’d be overwhelmed and abandon my family – blah, blah, blah. i guess that’s part of being jaded working with kids/adolescents who have been neglected/abused/abandoned, etc.

    however, something kicked in hardcore around 18-20 weeks and it was like i had this FIERCE protective instinct and a lot of my anxiety settled down too. now i find myself at 30 weeks, and though i’m a little nervous about labor (mostly about getting a c-section and/or having a long labor, etc.) i’m the same as you, i’m kinda looking forward to it all. i mean, it’s an experience that only women can have, and some never get to experience it & i would feel like i was dishonoring them if i didn’t try my best to enjoy & appreciate it as the blessing that it is. <3 i try to remind myself of all those out there TTC & suffering from infertility and it quickly brings me back down to earth and humbles me.

    you’ll be a great mama – this picture is adorable!

  2. bev:

    Since I wasn’t able to breathe properly through my nose, I tried breathing with my mouth which sometimes resulted in me snoring all through the night. Aveotsd I read on "kiwi drug" and so many wonderful results from people sleeping through the hole night. At least now I am able to breathe through my nose and Im not snoring my face off like a little piggy. I recommend any of my family and friends who snore to check out the reviews.

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