With less than 3 weeks to go before my due date with BebeDeux, I have been slowly making preparations for our new life as a family of 4.
The hardest part of this transition has had to do with Claire. Because for the past couple of weeks, I have been purposely spending less and less time with my firstborn.
I know that she is in good hands with J’s parents. And while I wouldn’t be lying if I were to say that I have been enjoying getting some extra rest, it is becoming more and more apparent with each passing day that Claire has grown less attached to me.
I may even go as far as to say that I am no longer her favorite person.
For the first time in her life, she will stretch her arms out to others when I am holding her. For the first time in her life, she does not cry when someone takes her from me. And for the first time in her life, she no longer cries when I leave the room.
I am happy that Claire is growing more independent. I tell myself that this is for her own good, so that the transition to having a younger sibling at such a young age — they will only be 13 months apart! — will not be so traumatic for her.
But I can’t help but be a bit sad at the same time.
I hope that one day, she will read these words and understand that I only have the best intentions for her.