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Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

While browsing miscarriage support forums yesterday, I discovered that a Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day exists. As if it were perfectly timed, it is today: October 15. I have been overwhelmed by the kindness of my friends, family, and even strangers following my loss. What surprised me even more was the flood of messages from other women, many of whom I know in real life, who came forward with miscarriage stories of their own. Today, I feel as if I hit a turning point in my mourning period. Because today, I received a message from a friend who announced that she is pregnant, and is planning on sharing the news publicly - including on Facebook - next week. She wanted to tell...

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Ever Dream This Man?

Yesterday I read a goosebumps-inducing post on Neatorama. Apparently, hundreds of people dream about this man every night throughout the world: As you learn more about "This Man" at the website created in his honor, you cannot help but be a bit spooked: In January 2006 in New York, the patient of a well-known psychiatrist draws the face of a man that has been repeatedly appearing in her dreams. In more than one occasion that man has given her advice on her private life. The woman swears she has never met the man in her life. That portrait lies forgotten on the psychiatrist's desk for a few days until one day another patient recognizes that face and says that the man has...

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Healing

Since returning from the hospital Monday, I have not been able to sleep or eat. I have put my phone on silent and ignored my emails and messages, vowing to get to them when I no longer start weeping at the first thought of what has happened. I mope around the house looking for distractions but manage to avoid human interaction. My melancholy state of mind is only interrupted by bouts of anger - pure, blazing ANGER - at the world, at myself, and even at God. I never realized I am capable of such wrath. I never realized I am capable of such selfishness, wondering thoughts such as 'How can the world still be existing, still functioning normally when something...

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