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Third Trimester

I am 28 weeks pregnant with BebeDeux today, which means that I am officially in my third trimester. I wish I had a belly shot to share with you, but I still don't have a functioning laptop with which to transfer photos from my camera and my cell phone camera isn't working. So here's what I looked like last year when I was 28 weeks pregnant with Claire, since everyone's been telling me that my tummy growth and weight gain look relatively the same.  My mother theorized that I must be having such difficult pregnancies because the babies are "absorbing" all my health...

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Worst Case Scenarios

Lately I have been plagued with awfully vivid nightmares — ones that jolt me from sleep and keep me up the rest of the night. Take the one from a couple of nights ago, for example: J is killed in a horrific accident. At his funeral, his parents and I get into an argument regarding the future of Claire and BebeDeux — they want to raise them in Hong Kong while I want to raise them here in the U.S. As their birth mother, I have legal custodial rights over them and vehemently refuse to raise my children in a country I have never even visited, which results in J's parents ceasing all contact with us. I sell our condo, taking a great financial...

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Surgery

I am currently writing this on my phone while lying in bed at the hospital. Early yesterday morning I woke up to excruciating abdominal pain, similar to the severe round ligament pain I had experienced during my pregnancy with Claire. With this pregnancy being so similar to the last, I had believed myself to have been lucky to have been spared such dramatic afflictions, but I was wrong. When the pain level reached that of labor pains, J called his brother to come watch Claire so that we could head to the hospital. Being 25 weeks pregnant, I was admitted to Labor & Delivery right away. The pain continued to grow worse, but BebeDeux seemed to be in good condition. Soon, the pain...

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Approaching Toddlerhood, and 24 Weeks

Remember how I said that we were working on transitioning Claire from 3 naps down to 2? She continued to hover back and forth between 2 and 3 naps for over a month. But in the end, it took a traumatic visit to the pediatrician's office to officially push her over to the 2 nap schedule. The lengths of her naps are still inconsistent, lasting anywhere from 30 minutes to 1 hour and 15 minutes. Her nighttime sleep has still yet to return to her pre-teething days and so she will wake up at least once per night more often than sleep all the way through. But now that she is able to stay awake for up to 3 and a half hours...

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Brain Dump

As I rolled out of bed this morning, I almost collapsed to the floor in a ball of agony. "Hello, pregnancy hip pains," I muttered to myself. "Now I remember you!" Hip pains and crotch pains. Hip pains from my hip joints loosening (I was not officially diagnosed with Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction in my last pregnancy, but it was still bad enough that I couldn't exercise for all of my third trimester) and the crotch pain from the increased bloodflow to the pelvic area. If you weren't around the first time I was pregnant, the hip pains feel like my right hip joint is about to pop open with every step or movement. Crotch pains feel like someone's been repeatedly kicking me in the...

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