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Negative Nancy vs Positive Polly

Gawd, having two toddlers is tough. And trying to be a good mom is the hardest thing I’ve ever done (and I imagine it will continue to be so for the remainder of my life).

These past couple of weeks have been especially trying with J’s parents and my own mother all on vacation (the timing was purely coincidental), leaving me with no help or backup for the kids while J is at work.

To make the experience extra memorable, my little Aerin fell sick with a cold…and as soon as she got better, she got hit with a full-on case of roseola.

How has the human species survived this long when parenting is so grueling?

It should come as no surprise to long-time readers that I am not the most positive person in the world. I have been called downright pessimistic — a Debbie Downer to the sunshine & rainbows crowd that seems so prevalent in the blogging world today.

But I am not a complete Negative Nancy. I have my “look at me sharting rainbow cookies!” moments. And, with my favorite TED talk in mind as I go about my everyday life as a SAHM, I have been noticing that perhaps the greatest influence my kids have had on me is that they give me the most spectacular highs. Sure, the downs are as low as ever, but the unhinged highs keep me hangin’ in there.

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A chart from the abovementioned post

As a result, whenever I’m feeling especially in the dumps, or when I’m overwhelmed and exhausted to the point of breaking-out-in-hives-and-getting-nosebleeds (both of which have happened this past week), I try my best to take a deep breath and think of at least one thing that I am thankful for.

And since most of my stress stems from Claire & Aerin these days, I like to focus my positive energy on them as well.

A C&A Update

This past week has been hell for me — not only was am I ill with a cold, Aerin has suddenly become super clingy with me. For instance, I’ll be standing behind her and she’ll start screaming because she can’t see me. I can’t even pee in peace because she’ll be trying to climb all over me.

J and I call her “mommy’s creepy stalker” because she literally follows me everywhere and wants to know what I’m doing at all times.  :mrgreen:

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If you’re a parent, I’m sure you’ve seen this viral picture by now.

They say that I should cherish these moments. And as much as I hate to admit it — because I’ve never been much for physical affection and she is really starting to annoy me — I know that I will. Just last month, when she got sick and refused to sleep in her crib, I would take her blankie and wrap it around her, holding her tight as we both dozed off on the couch. This is exactly what I did with Claire for the first 2 months of her life because it way the only way she would sleep. And holding Aerin like that really brought back those memories…I found myself feeling nostalgic.

Watching Little Minds Learn

Watching little minds learn is fascinating. Even when you try your best to stay impartial and unprejudiced, you can't help but notice the vast differences between each and every person. Take Aerin, for instance. Now that she has officially conquered infancy and is starting to really soak in, process, react, and regurgitate what she learns, we have noticed something peculiar about her style of learning: she tends to take her lessons a little too literally. As in, when I was trying to teach her to clap on demand using the word "박수" (bak-soo, or "clap" in Korean), I would say the word, clap, say the word again, then grab her hands to get them to clap. Easy, right? This is the exact technique I had used...

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The Baby of the Family

Ever since Aerin got sick last week, she has been super SUPER clingy to me. Before her illness, she was a pretty independent little girl. Now she needs to be held all the time — only by me, no less, and starts screaming her head off if she can't see me. Even her two favorite people after me, her halmeh (my mother) and yeye (J's father) have been having trouble calming her down. I know that this is probably just a phase. It might even be a combination of several factors, such as teething or reaching a new milestone (she has been cruising for a while and we're expecting her to start walking any day now). But you can't deny that it...

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What Are the Chances?!?!!!

Yesterday was a cool yet pleasant day. With temperatures in the low 50s and the sun shining overhead, I decided to take Aerin for a walk despite my lingering cold. (Claire was with her grandparents.) We walked the 22 blocks to my favorite children's park and I sat Aerin down on a swing. She hadn't been there since the temperatures took a dip, so she was obviously over the moon with glee. As I continued to push my giddy daughter on the swing, I noticed another mom with her baby...

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